


Image 1: Excavated site: The Massacre at El Mozote
Image 2: Image of El Mozote today
Image 3: Child in El Mozote today
As I read "The Massacre at El Mozote" by Mark Danner, I thought of how scary it would be to live in a place where the authorities are the ones responsible for terrorizing and committing acts against its citizens. In the case of El Salvador, the military targeted the most vulnerable populations, Mayan in rural communities. I was devastated, outraged, and disturbed by some of the accounts that I found in the novel.
What is most disturbing is the US's role in these dark years of El Salvador's history. They heavily funded and politically backed the Salvadoran military and its death squads. The US's backing of the military was a death sentence to all these people.
Even as I kid growing up in the Dominican Republic, I remember strikes and some social unrest but I don’t remember ever feeling persecuted. I do remember stories about Trujillo’s dictatorship from family members. The only person that is old enough to remember life during the Trujillo regime is my abuelita Tita. Tita is 90 and Tita usually points out the positives. She does mention some distant relatives who were persecuted but it seems like she was not necessarily negatively impacted by the assassinations and the terror. I’m not sure if she was even aware that these acts against humanity were taking place. Mi abuelita, Tita, is also not Haitian and our family was not on the political left. Tita is a white lady from a middle class family: she was at one point a teacher and a school principal. There was no reason for my Tita to fear that Trujillo would go after her or her family.
Rufina Amaya presented the most devastating story. As I read her account of what took place on the day of the massacre, my stomach was churning and my heart broke. I don’t know if there is anything worse than experiencing the death of your children. Rufina managed to escape from line-up of women who were about to be killed. This was what happened afterwards. I will quote Rufina at length because this was the quote that stood out the most for me.
“Then I heard one of my children crying. My son, Cristino, was crying, ‘Mama Rufina, help me! They’re killing me! They killed my sister! They’re killing me! Help me!’ I didn’t know what to do. They were killing my children. I knew that if I went back there to help my children I would be cut to pieces. But I couldn’t stand to hear it, I couldn’t bear it. I was afraid that I would cry out, that I would scream, that I would go crazy. I couldn’t stand it, and I prayed to God to help me. I promised God that if He helped me I would tell the world what happened here."
“Then I tied my hair up and tied my skirt between my legs and I crawled on my belly out from behind the tree. There were animals there, cows and a dog, and they saw me, and I was afraid they would make a noise, but God made them stay quiet as I crawled among them. I crawled across the road and under the barbed wire and into the maguey on the other side. I crawled a little farther through the thorns, and I dug a little hole with my hands and put my face in the hole so I could cry without anyone hearing. I could hear the children screaming still, and I lay there with my face against the earth and cried.”After reading this, I felt helpless and overcome by rage. The last time I felt this way was after watching “Hotel Rwanda.” Where could we have gone so wrong? And how can the people who commit these atrocious acts live with themselves?
(Image above:Aftermath years after the massacre.)